Ya Allah . Tak dinafikan , aku makin lama makin tak kuat . Aku perlukan kekuatan untuk terus hidup . Oh man ! I miss my old life . Okay , doesnt mean I didnt like life that I'm living now . Its just that , Ergh . Its complicated . I've suffer enough for such a long time . But who cares ?
' Let bygone be bygone ' This is what I said to almost every people who shares their secrets with me . And yes , I do mean it . But how can I let someone who I care the most to someone who hates me so much ? I dont care if the person is hating . What I care is only bout the people who I care the most . *cakap macam keling -.-'* I cant stop thinking bout this . If only I knew how to make things back to normal .
I forgive but I dont forget . Its hard to live a life like this you know . Okay , tell me how to forget things that we dont like ? Its very hard , okay . Nobody understands my situation here . Not even me , -.-' I dont even know why and how this bloody thing happened . Oh how I wish I can go back to the old time and make every things the way it should be . Not like this .
Things happen for a reason . But what is the reason ? I should lie ? Or I should die ? I want to know the reason . Well perhaps , one day I will . I dont wanna tell lies . Especially to the one I loved . No , never .
I'm hurt . HURT AND SUFFER . Hm , I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired of all of this .
I want to let go , but I just couldn't . I'm sorry , )': Forgive me ? Please ?